To be or not be be..

To be or not be be..

i choose to be..at times not to be..
life has shown me a situation which i never thought i'd face..i am in a state where i am smiling only to keep peace..to please.. for others..

my feelings have been lost..suppressed..have subsided..but not evaporated..
i still have that one ray of hope left deep inside..which may put things right again..
i miss old times..old days..
i miss the special presence i had in ur life..the special bond we shared..the special talks..walks..smiles..all of it..
i miss the bond..the ties..the confidence i had in ur presence in my life..

its like a void u make each day..
i shy away from looking at u..coz each look says more than ur words..

i wonder if actions at times speak more than words..actions speak the language of the heart..words are an expression of the mind..
ur each action drew be to a point..return from where is far from easy..

maybe i was living in a world of illusions..
choosing to see only what i liked..choosing to believe only wat i wanted to..

but dnt say no..ur actions led me to this..
i didnt want to fall for u..u made me a captive..

i wonder iof each action of urs..was ment to be or was just a momentry response..

i failed myself..i thgought i was stronger..

m trying..to be falling..i fail to..
i wish to fall in comnplatetely or fall out totwally..this mid way presence is not the best of places..

lets put things toghether once again..
i promise u a life with no pain..
lets give it a chance
coz i do..i really do..wanna be with u !